The curse of perfectionism
Look at these two pictures for a moment.
Which one is more appealing to you?
Where would you rather be?
The first picture shows the untouched chaos of a jungle. The second pictures shows a perfectly lined up row of trees in a monoculture. Chaos vs. Perfectionism.
Both pictures have a certain beauty. The first picture happens when nature is being left alone. The second picture shows the influence of humans.
In certain areas perfectionism is certainly useful. However don't let yourself be pulled down by your own desire to be perfect.
Humans aren't bored to be perfect. In fact
"Perfectionism is a violent act against the dignity of our imperfect humanity".
Be yourself. Be who you are. Stop trying to appeal to those that expect you to be perfect. Be the jungle. Be raw energy.